New Year, New Attitude

This year is going to be filled with "can do" and less "can't."
I don't know if it's my stay in China for four months or that I recognize barely anyone on campus, am not dating, and it being my last semester, but I definitely feel different. I definitely think my stay in China played a huge part in it though. Having a large amount of homework due everyday, class everyday, no therapy meetings, not enough meds, and no close friends or family for support really made last semester difficult. I really learned that I had been using my anxiety and depression as an excuse, believing things like "I can't do that because of my anxiety," or "It's really hard for me because of my anxiety and depression." In a sense that is relatively true but it was more true because I made it so, like a self-fulfilling prophecy. I figured that out at the very end of my stay there when I started making better choices and saw my situation improving. It really came down to my attitude towards myself and what I'm capable of.
I know a number of people have said this to me many times but for some reason it clicked after this experience.
So I was also going to start the year writing my first rough draft (because, hey, I decided I was going to do it so why put it off?) but I don't have the book with me. That might be good though so I can get situated this term and figure out when I'm going to do homework for which class and so forth. Then maybe February 1st I'll start writing. I'm taking an English class that focuses on how authors use grammar to get a point across or use certain tools and tricks so I should probably start writing after I learn a few things because those might be helpful. Actually, they will definitely be helpful. I feel like my writing is at Stephanie Meyer level and no one respects her writing so I really need to step it up.
Anyway, so my New Year's Resolution is to believe in myself and not put myself down.
I hope all of you have taken a moment to think about how you're going to make this year different :)