Depression and Anxiety

I am not doing well at all.
Let me get this out there so things can make sense. I have depression. Like, clinical depression that I take medication for and it appears to be caused by anxiety. I'm actually changing my medication at the moment because I was tired all the time and it wasn't completely working. Apparently, changing medications can bring about some crazy side effects. Honestly, I think the only side effects is my skin becoming oily. Also, I'm still getting to the proper dosage so it's not completely working. I keep making bad decisions when it comes to school. I'm fine with work however, thank god. At least I can pull myself together for work.
Basically, I'm good short-term but I haven't figured out how to handle everyday issues or long-term anything.

I'm currently failing my study abroad class and if I don't pick it up to a C+ I won't be going to Beijing. Which means I don't graduate with a East Asian Studies degree, just a History degree which I suppose is fine but I'm going to school for Chinese. I need to go to China to perfect my Chinese.

Depression sucks.

I am so Messed up Dude

As if the no post for a month wasn't a sign. I am constantly tired and therefore missing classes and not doing work so I can sleep. I was even late to work today! Real work! I never do that! I am my BEST on the job! So I saw my doctor Tuesday about it and we're switching my medication in hopes I will be more awake and focused and able to make better decisions like not go to sleep when I have class soon.
I am seriously fighting an uphill battle thanks to the two weeks of rock-bottom. I'm honestly just trying to keep my head above water until this semester is over. Then I can focus on two things: earning money for China and learning Chinese. The end- that's it- can't wait. I can't wait until the twenty things hanging over my head are gone and life can be simpler.