Lonely and Unhappy

I know I only just got here and I have a lot of time to make friends but I'm just going to say it.
I'm lonely.
I'm acting more awkward than normal and I think it's rubbing everyone the wrong way. I might be even giving everyone the impression I want to be left alone but I don't.
I just needed to get that out there.
On another note, my teacher had us do an assignment at the end of class, asking about our opinions of China and Beijing so I thought I'd give my thoughts. After all, you may be reading this to learn about me but you really want to read about me and China. Or just China ;)
So let me begin by admitting I have a negative bias off the bat from my experience last year so if you notice an overly critical attitude and it upsets you I apologize in advance.

Anyway, I will say I like China but I don't want to live here yet. It's just too dirty. People just spit everyone (men and women), babies poop and pee in the street because their families can't afford diapers, and when the cleaning ladies come in to clean my dorm room they just take out the trash and weep the floor. They apparently change the sheets once a week but mine haven't been changed since I arrived. The bathroom I'm assuming is my responsibility however they are supposed to give us toilet paper but this is sporadic at best and I've had to use my own. Someone was mugged last weekend at the zoo and another was accused of beating a woman but thankfully the woman messed up her story to the police and there was a Chinese friend to back up the American's story.
This all being said, my personal encounters with Chinese people have been wonderful. I will never forget the Chinese family I stayed with in Datong and my Chinese teacher is adorable. The Chinese man, Han Bing, who's also in charge of the program took us personally to Tiananmen (This is the correct spelling, Spellcheck!!) Square and to an acrobatic show! I haven't met my language partner yet but I expect that to be a wonderful experience as well.
When I'm in a group in a tourist place everyone wants to take a picture with us and sometimes they don't ask and are just rude. When I'm by myself however away from tourists no one bothers me. I just walk around as another person. I try to talk to shop clerks every now and then and they've been receptive and friendly.
I'm not a fan of the "local" dialect because it's very harsh with an "r" sound thrown in everywhere but thankfully not everyone speaks that way. The driving here is pretty insane. There's just too many people walking around and driving and sometimes people don't listen to the street signs so you really have to be careful. I just pretend I'm crossing the street in Chicago where I shouldn't and I manage just fine. I usually wait until I walk with a crowd, or last time I waited for a pregnant woman to start walking. And the people here must be some kind of animal whisperers because the owners don't need leashes to make sure their dogs stay nearby. They just do. It's pretty miraculous to watch- I'll have to get it on camera.
The pollution really hurts the view but on a nice day, like today, you can see the blue sky a little, and the mountains in the far off distance, reminding you this place has beauty and it's not all this:

a store under renovation (i kid you not)

Or this:

Listening to everyone I get the feeling I would like Taiwan better because it's cleaner but I can't think about that right now. I'm in China and I'll be here for over three months so I need to get used to it. Hopefully I'll make friends soon.